I'm in such a good place right now. Sure, everyone has their off days - and I know I'm prone to mine, but to look at the bigger picture I can honestly say that I feel much better about myself and my surroundings than I did say... Last summer?

Sometimes I feel as though I could sit here mushing and gushing, but I'm never sure that what I write will be perceived exactly as I intend it to.

The weather outside is pretty grim, it's raining and I can see the tree at the end of the garden swaying in the wind. This doesn't bother me though. I don't plan to go anywhere this evening other than to the fridge or the bathroom. Winter Hannah really is kicking in, and I think my Christmas spirit is making an appearance too.

Make my wish come true, all I want for Christmas is you

Let's meet in our dreams tonight...

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I believe they did.
   
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
I would not.
  
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Fairly recently.
  
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
I do, daily.
  
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
Gosh, I doubt that.
  
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Not today.
  
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Black vest top, raspberry jeans.
  
8. How often do you listen to music?
Whenever I'm on a bus or in the shower really.
  
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Hmm, neither really very much.
  
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?
Yes, I know it will.
  
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
I'm fairly anti-social, not always through choice.
  
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
Possibly...  
13. What about ‘R’?
Maybe...
  
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
I cannot.
  
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
Of course I do.
  
16. Are you going out of town soon?
Hopefully before the year is out!
  
17. When was the last time you cried?
Last week I think.
  
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yes.
  
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
No, I like my eyes.
  
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
Mhmm.
  
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
Work, today was my day off.
  
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
One guy...
  
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
Yes indeedily.
  
24. What are you sitting on right now?
On my bed.
  
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
Yes.
  
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Yeaaah.
  
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Michael.
  
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
A couple a year.
  
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
New Look.
  
30. Does anyone hate you?
Don't know.
  
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
Lol, no. I'm past that.
  
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Yes and no!
  
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
No thank you.
  
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
Hmm, a year or two ago maybe.
  
35. Did you have a dream last night?
I can't remember.
  
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
This morning.
  
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
No idea.
  
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
I know so.
  
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I'd like to think so.
  
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
Yeah, it was nice. I met Sam for a bit then spent the evening with Mike, my mum and my step-dad.
  
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
I was :)
  
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
I doubt so.
  
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Yes.
  
44. What’s the best part about school?
Socialising, duh.
  
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Quite a few...
  
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
I used to.
  
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Sometimes it's unfortunate that I do.
  
48. Were you single over the last summer?
I've been in a relationship majority of this year.
  
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
It's fairly different! I'm no longer at university or living in my hometown.
  
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Getting ready for work...
  
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
I do not.
  
52. Are you nice to everyone?
I try my best.
  
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yes, a good friend.
  
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
I already have.
  
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Terrible.
  
56. Do you think you like someone?
I know so.
  
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
Might have.
  
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
Hard to say.
  
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
Yes.
  
60. Do you hate anyone?
Nah.
  
61. How’s your heart?
Beating, belonging to another.
  
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
I don't hate talking about it, but it's difficult to talk about something you don't fully understand yourself.
  
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
I have indeed.
  
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
I'd say noone hopefully.
  
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
No.
  
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No way.
  
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
No!
  
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Not that I can remember.
  
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Michael.
  
70. How do you look right now?
Bleurgh.
  
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
A few.
  
72. Can you commit to one person?
Already have.
  
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Ma boi.
  
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
Sure.
  
75. Did you wake up cranky?
Not today.
  
76. Are you a jealous person?
I guess so, in some respects.
  
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
Suuuure.
  
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Gave.
  
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
Yes please.
  
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Work work work.
  
81. Last person you cried in front of?
Dunooo.
  
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Forrest!
  
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
In some respects.
  
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Talking, watching tv.
  
85. Are you over your past?
Not completely.
  
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
I have, I do.
  
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Yes.
  
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
No thank you.
  
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
Yes please.
  
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Hmm, don't think so.
  
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
I hope so.
  
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
Hah, yes.
  
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
Don't know...
  
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
In a form... amazing.
  
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
I was.
  
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
Very.
  
97. Who do you have texts from?
Friends...
  
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Well, that's hurtful.
  
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes.
  
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
Mike.
  
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
I don't think so.
  
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Sure :) numerous times.

My blog is officially a year old! This is the longest and most successful diary I've ever kept, and I wonder if the fact that it's electronic has any influence over that. More often that not, pictures express the way I'm feeling and so it isn't always necessary for me to write with every post.

If I look back over the past year, I can honestly say I've never had such an exciting or quite such good time in my life before. Last Autumn/Winter life really picked up for me. I was holding down two jobs, bonding with a good friend, and saving hard to travel the world solo.

In having two jobs I showed myself that I'm a hard-working and capable person, who employers are pleased to have on their workforce. In bonding with a close friend, I discovered that I loved him in a different way to my other friends, and that I wanted him to know that. And as for travelling round the world by myself; with my own money and my own decisions to make, I realised I'm a hell of a lot stronger and braver than I ever thought I was before.

Good things come to those who wait. Life is good, and so I no longer know what I'm waiting for. This prospect excites me.

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Yes, I could.   
2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?  I am taken.
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?  I'd probably scoff, but thank you.   
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? Not that I can recall.
5: Are you interested in anyone right now? More than interested.   
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? 1pm on Monday!
7: Do you want to be single? Definitely not.
8: Did you go out or stay in last night? I had a quiet night in because I was working early today. 
9: How late did you stay up last night? 10pm.
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? Yes.
11: Last three things you had to drink? Diet Coke, Vanilla Cremé Frappé, Milk.   
12: Have you pretended to like someone? No, but perhaps not liked someone as much as they thought I did.   
13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? No.
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Yes.   
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone? Yes and no.  
16: Think back five months ago, were you single? I was not :).
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? BREAK TIME!
18: Hold hands with anyone this week? Ma boi.
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? I think I could.
20: What would you name your future daughter? I'm not sure, I know of a few nice names though!
21: Do you miss anyone? Sure I do.
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night? Errrr, possibly... I can't think.  
23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? Nope!
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings? Rubbish. I'm emotional ha.
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad? I don't generally get mad, but I guess so.
26: Who did you last see in person? Everyone at work today. 
27: Are you listening to music right now? No, I have the tv on.  
28: What is something you currently want right now? Huggles.
29: What is the last thing you said out loud? Byeeeeee.  
30: How is your heart lately? Beating :)  
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? When I'm feeling like a slob.
32: Are you wearing socks? Yes.
33: What do people call you? Hannah, Baubers, Hans, Hanny, Hanny Baubers, Baubie.  
34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I hope so.
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life? You could say that!
36: Who did you last share a bed with? Ma boi.  
37: Did you do something bad today? Errr doubtful.
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? Today.
39: Do you get stressed out easily? A little, but not a lot.  
40: Will you sing today? Doubtful!
41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? Sure I have.
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? Boyfriend/close friends.
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? Yes, but not for me.
44: What are you listening to right now? Tv.
45: What is wrong with you right now? I dunnoooo.
46: What is on your wrists right now? A tattoo, a hair bobble and my sleeves...  
47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? TK Maxx.
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? Hot chocolate!!
49: Do you make wishes at 11:11? Naaaah.
50: Are you a good artist? Errrr, in some ways.  
51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh? It is.
52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? Six months ago I was in Australia, yes and no!
53: Ever been on a golf cart? I don't think so.
54: Do you have trust issues? I guess so.  
55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? Yeah, Killian and I used to chatter a lot.  
56: Do you own something from Hot Topic? I do not.  
57: Do you use chap stick? Vaseline?
58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? I have indeedy. And it was well deserved!
59: Do you have a little sister? Nope.
60: Have you ever been to New York? No, I would very much like to go though.  
61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? I'd like to think so.
62: Have you hugged someone within the last week? Yerrrrr.
63: What were you doing at midnight last night? I was in La-la-land.  
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes.
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Hells yeah.  
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person? Yes, I'm committed.  
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? Yes.
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? With someone!  
69: Will next Friday be a good one? I'm not sure yet, I don't know if I'll be working or what I'll be doing.

Peace out y'all.