It's kind of sad, really.
Saturday, 22 December 2012
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? We were friends for years first. He's always been someone I thought was kind, caring and attractive. It was inevitable.
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you? Nothing really.
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? You're my favourite.
04: what are you listening to? Adverts on television.
05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to? Working all around Christmas.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? Work, dinner, and not sure.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? Yes.
08: sex on the first date? No.
09: kiss on the first date? Maybe.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes there is.
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Getting there, definitely.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? Always.
13: what are three things you did today? Said goodbye to my mum, made my boyfriend a packed-lunch, drew some pictures.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? At a friends.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? Minty.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? Nah, not really.
17: what is on your wrists right now? A tattoo.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? Been there for sure.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? I believe so.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yeah, I am.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? Most likely.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? No, I can only spell my name.
23: how have you felt today? Tired, happy, tired, content, tired.
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Spend half on more Christmas presents, and save the other half.
25: what is wrong with you right now? I'm just tired.
26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? Yeah, but it's in the past.
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? Starbucks.
28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? Because I realised they are someone I wouldn't want to spend my life with, let alone right now.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? About 1.30am. Treated myself to a cheeky late one.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Today.
31: what were you doing an hour ago? Cooking dinner.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? Christmas, New Year, finishing training.
33: are you wearing jeans right now? Nope.
34: are you a patient person? Generally yes.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? Have done on this ocassion :)
36: favorite color? Purple.
37: did you have a dream last night? Not that I can remember.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? "Sweatpants"
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? Mike.
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? Sure do.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? No.
42: do you like meeting new people? I'm getting there!
43: are you afraid of falling in love? Not this time.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? Eaten less, but no.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? I've heard that a good few times.
46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? I have, but sack that!
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you? Nothing really.
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? You're my favourite.
04: what are you listening to? Adverts on television.
05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to? Working all around Christmas.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? Work, dinner, and not sure.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? Yes.
08: sex on the first date? No.
09: kiss on the first date? Maybe.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes there is.
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Getting there, definitely.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? Always.
13: what are three things you did today? Said goodbye to my mum, made my boyfriend a packed-lunch, drew some pictures.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? At a friends.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? Minty.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? Nah, not really.
17: what is on your wrists right now? A tattoo.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? Been there for sure.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? I believe so.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yeah, I am.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? Most likely.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? No, I can only spell my name.
23: how have you felt today? Tired, happy, tired, content, tired.
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Spend half on more Christmas presents, and save the other half.
25: what is wrong with you right now? I'm just tired.
26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? Yeah, but it's in the past.
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? Starbucks.
28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? Because I realised they are someone I wouldn't want to spend my life with, let alone right now.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? About 1.30am. Treated myself to a cheeky late one.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Today.
31: what were you doing an hour ago? Cooking dinner.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? Christmas, New Year, finishing training.
33: are you wearing jeans right now? Nope.
34: are you a patient person? Generally yes.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? Have done on this ocassion :)
36: favorite color? Purple.
37: did you have a dream last night? Not that I can remember.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? "Sweatpants"
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? Mike.
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? Sure do.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? No.
42: do you like meeting new people? I'm getting there!
43: are you afraid of falling in love? Not this time.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? Eaten less, but no.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? I've heard that a good few times.
46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? I have, but sack that!
Friday, 21 December 2012
Sunday, 16 December 2012
I might not have much self-esteem but I sure have proven a heck of a lot to myself over the past couple of years. I'm the sort of person who once they have in their mind that they're uncomfortable with something or can see the negative more than the positive, they would rather not put themself through it, so to avoid the tension and nerves I know there's a high probability I will feel. That said, I know what matters in life; education, travel experiences, money and love. With that in mind I've decided to push myself, and realised that I needn't worry as much as I have done in the past. I can do what I want, I can achieve what's important to me, I can make something of myself.
Education: I was nervous about going to university at 17, largely because of my age but also because it was my first time entering such an adult environment and I was doing so completely alone. I'm glad I did though, because seeing my grandparents and parents express how proud of me they were on Graduation Day is a feeling I can't describe. It's the first time we really celebrated me.
Travel Experiences: I travelled by myself around the world this year, stopping in London, Hong Kong, Australia, New Zealand and America. Travelling gave me new found confidence in myself that I really needed. It showed me I can be "popular" by being myself and that I don't need to put on a front for people to like me. I managed to budget all my finances, plan all of my travel and accommodation by myself and it really showed me how capable I am. When I have noone to help me, I can manage! Not only that, I can make sure I have a damn good time!
Money: Since my travels I've tried really hard to get myself on the career ladder, and finally my hard work has paid off. After extensive testing and interviews, I landed my first real job which I started on the 3rd of December. Training is intense, and I have no background in this job sector, but I'm already proving myself and have been told I'll be "a real credit to the VSC". Now, it's early days but if I keep this up I don't see why I wont progress in some way with this job. This is opening up a whole bunch of new options for me.
Love: This is so important to me. My family have supported every decision I've made this year, and I can't thank them enough for it. Any pressure I felt is now gone, because I know I'm doing what they want me to, and luckily it's just what I want to do too. I'm so thankful for my boyfriend, because I know that without his love and support I wouldn't feel half as good about myself as I do now. This Christmas is ours, in every way, shape and form. I can honestly say, this is the most excited about Christmas I can ever recall feeling. I love you, Michael Kelly.
Education: I was nervous about going to university at 17, largely because of my age but also because it was my first time entering such an adult environment and I was doing so completely alone. I'm glad I did though, because seeing my grandparents and parents express how proud of me they were on Graduation Day is a feeling I can't describe. It's the first time we really celebrated me.
Travel Experiences: I travelled by myself around the world this year, stopping in London, Hong Kong, Australia, New Zealand and America. Travelling gave me new found confidence in myself that I really needed. It showed me I can be "popular" by being myself and that I don't need to put on a front for people to like me. I managed to budget all my finances, plan all of my travel and accommodation by myself and it really showed me how capable I am. When I have noone to help me, I can manage! Not only that, I can make sure I have a damn good time!
Money: Since my travels I've tried really hard to get myself on the career ladder, and finally my hard work has paid off. After extensive testing and interviews, I landed my first real job which I started on the 3rd of December. Training is intense, and I have no background in this job sector, but I'm already proving myself and have been told I'll be "a real credit to the VSC". Now, it's early days but if I keep this up I don't see why I wont progress in some way with this job. This is opening up a whole bunch of new options for me.
Love: This is so important to me. My family have supported every decision I've made this year, and I can't thank them enough for it. Any pressure I felt is now gone, because I know I'm doing what they want me to, and luckily it's just what I want to do too. I'm so thankful for my boyfriend, because I know that without his love and support I wouldn't feel half as good about myself as I do now. This Christmas is ours, in every way, shape and form. I can honestly say, this is the most excited about Christmas I can ever recall feeling. I love you, Michael Kelly.
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