I wish I had something meaningful to say, something of substance and with numerous layers that I could spend an endless amount of time writing about. Maybe one day.

Manipulating situations became standard behaviour from you. You confronted me with awkward conversations and uncomfortable scenarios, whereby I was forced to make the right decision, the decision that would in the long run benefit not only me, but you and those around us too. I felt roughly the size of the font I'm using now. I was a pawn in a cruel game, and utterly oblivious to it at the time. I was the one who was completely honest about my feelings, I was the one who never gave up hope. And with this knowledge to hand, you took advantage of my fragility. You forced me to see rationality, to create this distance between us.

I don't owe anything to anyone.

I'm worth something. I'm worth a damn sight more than you ever let me feel.

Let that be the end of it.

The extremely sad truth.

Never forget

Lol.

I'm aware this picture refers to the rule as "of a gentleman", but I would like to state that I don't consider it gender specific. We should all be grateful for who and what we have in our lives, and while it is often sad to lose something or someone that you once held dear at least you were blessed enough to once have experienced such bliss, and can look back in fondness at the memories you have.

"it wasn't me...pahahaha"



Mufasa is a fictional character, but nonetheless - he was a completely devoted father. He put his own life at risk to save his child, without giving a second of thought to the danger he was putting himself in. Simba is right: Mufasa is brave, but he's also much more than that; he's a dedicated father, a compelling leader, and a courageous, selfless animal. Scar was an envious sibling, and envy is a most destructive emotion. The Lion King portrays this destruction beautifully. Unfortunately, while The Lion King is illustrating the turbulant emotions and downfall of fictional characters, one cannot simply ignore that envy and evil are not restricted to the fictional world.

We live in a world riddled with malice, and while Disney films communicate stories of misfortune and sinful behaviour the ending is most often resolved by one means or another. Sometimes it appears as though Disney is only sugar-coating a deeper reality with elements talking animals, fantasy worlds and fairytale endings.

Those who play with fire should prepare to burn.

Q&A

1- My best friends are.
2- What I hate most about myself.
3- What I love most about myself.
4- What I’m really good at.
5- What I’m really bad at.
6- Biggest turn ons.
7- Biggest turn offs.
8- What I want to be when I get older.
9- My relationship with my sibling(s).
10- My relationship with my parents.
11- My idea of a perfect date.
12- My biggest pet peeves.
13- A description of the boy I like.
14- A description of the person I dislike the most.
15- A reason I’ve lied to a friend.
16- Where I have lived before.
17- A description of the family I want to have when I’m older.
18- What my greatest achievements are.
19- What I hate the most about school.
20- How my last kiss when down.
21- Most embarrassing moment.
22- What my last text message says.
23- What words upset me the most.
24- What words make me the best about myself.
25- A description of my self-esteem.
26- A description of my best friend.
27- The reason behind my last break up.
28- My favourite songs right now.
29- A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11.
30- An internal conflict I have with myself.
31- The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
32- The sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.

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1. Fundamental to my existence.

2. My lack of confidence and self-belief.

3. I always care, and that's one thing I'm not afraid to show.

4. I'm really good at listening. I'm a hard worker. And when I love, I love with every piece of my heart.

5. I'm really bad at speaking up when I'm with a large group of people I don't know very well.

6. Confidence - but not arrogance, a meaningful smile - one that is visible in the eyes, kisses filled with passion and electricity, body contact

7. Arrogance, belittling of me or others, generally scaffiness, lots of swearing when completely unneccessary.

8. A somebody. A somebody who impacts on another's life in a most wonderful way.

9. We're like friends really!

10. My mum is a lovely lady. She's extremely supportive and strives for the best in everything she can.

11. I'm easily pleased, but a little effort goes a long way. I love it when others are thoughtful and considerate, but I've got by with less before.

12. Excessive swearing, body odour, lies.

13. n/a

14. n/a

15. I don't lie, and I couldn't lie even if I wanted to. The only minor lie I've perhaps told is when I've pretended I don't already know the gossip I'm being told, purely because it wasn't my place to tell in the first place.

16. Just outside the city, perfectly central between the seaside and the countryside.

17. One that knows love, commitment and happiness.

18. Graduating from university.

19. Exams, they seem more like memory tests to me.

20. Not very romantically or meaningfully - ah well.

21. I cannot honestly think, although I'm sure there are many...

22. "I do! No tellin' hen" hahaha

23. I. Don't. Care.

24. I. Love. You.

25. Could be a lot higher, but could be lower.

26. Someone I can depend on, and who can depend on me. Someone with at least a few similar interests as me. Someone who is caring and attentive.

27. Different desires, different dreams, different lives.

28. Honey and the Moon - Joseph Arthur. An old favourite.

29. I don't do that. I do wish I would find myself though.

30. BE CONFIDENT DAMMIT.

31. I can't bring myself to type it.

32. Why bother typing it, those words, nor I, was clearly not important enough to hold to.

The weather is changing with haste.

The air remains crisp and clear, yet, even the faintest wind is so bitter on my skin. I'm bundling up in the mornings and struggling to remove the layers when I start my working day, although I know if I kept too many on I wouldn't appreciate them when I once more venture into the harsh outdoors. The snow shovel propped against the wall speaks loudly to me now. Winter might be a beautiful season in Scotland, but there's not denying that mother nature can be brutal when she chooses to be.

The Doting Daddy...

RANDOM

Did you know that horses are sometimes taken to the beach to swim in the sea as a form of leg-strengthening exercise?

Naturally speaking, horses avoid the sea because there is no food source available, they cannot drink the salt water, and would find it difficult to escape predators. This does not mean however, that they don't enjoy swimming given appropriate conditions.

Carbohydrates make my world go round...

Macaroni Cheese

Cheese on Toast

Sandwiches



Baguettes

                    Spaghetti Carbonara

                                                               Coco-pops

Bourbon Biscuits

Victoria Sponge

Spaghetti Bolognese

                                                                              Lasagne

                                   Pasta Bake

Escapism